words that i may not tell

Got some words, it's really hard to tell, but, it's our true feeling.
Sometimes, we rather tell the person that i hate u than i love u. Why it is so hard to say so?
Everyone scared to face frustrated, worry the person we loved will reject or leave us. Yes, so am I. Choose to be silent rather than tell the truth, choose to act like not care than worry so much. What the hell am I doing?! Just let the person leave me away like that! Although I am really care so much, but, I'm just not brave enough to face frustrated anymore since I had cry so much for it, such a coward I am...